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new ME~ :)

2011-07-17T18:30:00.003+08:00

Currently am adapting with the new chapter or so-called new episode of my blessed life. Am not flossing with the word ‘bless’ there but it’s not off beam to think that way..it is? When something bad happened, we always think why this or that happened but why in any ways we don’t think why this or that happened to me/us when a very bliss and wonderful, amazing things happened.. ever think of that b4? Every time am not in a very good mood or gloomy, I’ll try to twist my way of thinking and keep my head up..it works..sometime..haha hey...not everyone has that positive ions every time.. i did have my bad turning ok..:D because im normal!!

Ok..ok..why ‘new chapter’..because nowadays n onwards..everything is going 180degrees (360?)off from my life in kuantan before...am become more stay-at-home lady every day and only going out when my mom asks to or once every 2 weeks..believe it? Never believe myself either..*big grin.. why? No money lah!haha..even that one of the reasons, the others, i just want relax myself out and appreciate my good-goyang kaki-feeling b4 the ‘calling’... my personal life---it’s different now..in a good way of coz.. don’t think the appalling one..we are adults now! Hehe..always pray for the best..n insyaAllah everything is going to be okay..:)

Everyone is overwhelming by books and info now..oh my..am not..am the way around..keeping busy downloading and watching and listening too much!! The heart-rending thing is, am afraid of becoming bad habit indeed..they keep me away from u, books...huk3..who’s to blame rather than myself..true? yes..indeed..TRUE!

Others? As my age already reach ehem22...24 last june..ehem22..:D am feeling matured enough but my voice cannot be changed la..;p how much i want to keep it matured, it turns out---ruined! Kekeke.. so..sesape yg ade wish dlm hati---bg la suare MIftah..bertuka on my last birth-day..well,my friends..seems..to be not granted! :D but am happy with how i am sound when i speak and that resonance vibrates through ur ears..haha.. im grateful!:)

Smile alwys..

p/s: nothing personal..just something to share n kill my time

current ‘drugs’ even not up-to-date but here it goes

rolling in the deep, if i die young, 2am-u wouldn’t answer my call, jlo-on d floor, kim bo kyung-suddenly n kim soo hyun-dreaming..;) pokok?:p

last year celebration my luvly rumates:) n during pura's brthday.:)

saYE & senyUM & False

2011-07-12T22:24:00.003+08:00

Ok..first..title ats tu saje je..nothing personally la..juz dont know the right one! It has been a long time. Now..am already graduated and waiting for the ‘calling’. The last 3 months after last exam as undergraduate student, nothing much happened and as to be as interested to told about. it was neutral. There were some bad news and some was good news. However, every minutes and seconds need to be grateful though. It’s July and for last 4 years..July was the time to keep up and focus for getting back to campus. Holidays are fun but when it becomes long enough, we might find it boring until we never get this long holiday afterward. That was the thing that people always talk about and even it's hard to believe it in present, it is true!!!

Wargghhh.. i miss my friends, i miss to walk to friend’s room and gossiping of course. :D and talk as much as i could till it gets boring and get back to my room and watching movies. N yet playing basketball with friend is definitely i want to do the MOST at this time being! Even am not a good enough player but it funs to sweat and relax at the same time. I miss to jump around!!! People..people...let’s find a time for us to gather at least to play around, if possible. :(

Study??errr..what?what’s that?haha..denial state of being so much lazy-syndrome precipitated :p tu laa..cuti lame sngt..hehe.. nk bukak buku kt umah? Ehmm..that’s a very difficult task to do..study desk pon dh--> berhabok!sgt!..

Ok people..focus! even how much the syndrome gets u..jom! lets get our spirit on toll, ok! I am now..hopefully.haha... procrastination always bite me through time..sigh~ whatever~~

Kekawan..miss u lah! Lepak taj time rehat n late night xdpt dh..:( nk ponteng2 xdpt dh..nk main2 dlm kelas xdpt dh..nk main msk2 xdpt dh(errr...bile tu?haha..time batch pnye function je la kot)..nk usik2 xdpt dh..nk gadoh2 xdpt dh..tp yg rx6th’s members suke sgt gadoh kt shoutbox kn..xfun la yg tu..aduyaii.. so,sume xdpt.. ape yg dpt??? Kenangan lah..let’s treasure our friendship till d end ok? Luv u all laahhh friends!! (no need to mention names--> u know who u r..:D)

n kt bwh ni yg candid ok..kah3--evil laugh.:D

NK hbs Dah rupenYe..T_T

2011-03-14T21:53:00.004+08:00

FLy..time does fly..skrg dh nk hbs dh study..jz less than 1 month, to cherish the moments which i think mostly in the room, reading notes and in exam hall though.. waa...final exam is approaching. are u prepare and ready? am i? lorr..kalo ye, menipu la tu kn..bak kate my rumate 'palsu!!' hehe.. that word is already stick to my tounge.. contagious la..mcm mane nk hlngkn eh..cannot la kot..cz i loike.. :D xgitu cik gedus..? ntah die bce ntah blog nie..kih3..

btw, it is common to have so much things to do b4 btol2 dpt study notes yg menimbon bagai. tak ats katil, ats meja..nk tdo, alih ltk ats meja, nk gune meja, alih ltk ats tilam..hahaha.. burok la mitah!! :D burok kn..hmm..xnk la mcm nie..jom kite kemas..klo korng dtg my room next time, sure, clean n clear..deep clean neutrogena..:p

knpe tulih post ni eh? becoz at least nk jugk post in 2011..archieve sblh tu duk 2010 jek..sakit mate tgk..dh xleh nk post in BI sbb kple skrg nk dlm BM akibat membace bahan bacaan sblm interview dlm BM..hehe tp last2..campor rojak buah dlm bilik interview tu..how can i say..mother tounge kt UIA ckp cmpor..:( ish..burok la mitah!! lagi...mrh ni..mrh..<>:D

for wht worst, i love to listen melancholic songs nowadays. so, melancholic songs+tlebih menghayati= tlebih sensitp..poor 'u' who are alwys kne fire..ish x elok btol la..burok la mitah..triple dh nie..:(

so, jom kite kutip sisa2 mase yg ade, wat memories.. so, next time, there will a time for REMINISCING all the memories together.. go go rx6th!! xoxo

dh2..jom bce poster+ wat PT..

btw, this is my fav song 4 d moment.walaupon xla uptodate pon pnye lagu tp biaq p la..hehe

Christina Perri: Jar of hearts..

squeezing RANdOM~`

2010-07-02T22:30:00.004+08:00

warghhhh..it does take time to post a new one. it's even hard as i almost forgot i do have a blog. keh3..however, good grief i do write on it now. i did not know if there were not any interesting stories to share with but i did know that i did not know how to start. the final year is coming and frankly, im not ready. it's hard to accept the fact that im old enough to get into final year and old enough to start a new beginning. grrr... bloodcurdling and horrifying enough. i do hate this feeling. life is hard but it will become harder if we make it that way. FOCUS please.

what i hope for this new semester that it will start with good things rather than something really make me depressed like last year. the first week of my 3rd year did make me depressed. yet, i even cannot focus and concentrate in class and even cried when i recalled the 'thing'. depressed and be able to over it in 1 month after that did help me and a vacation with my family in first few weeks after entering the 3rd year to penang really make my head up ahead and straight. yet, i did get warning letter for a 1 credit hr subject but it did worth it. thanks mom and kak ida. i love u both very much..muches!hehe.. and of course my other fmily members. i do love u all.

conflicts happened every year. however, some of them, i did manage to handle, and sometimes, i got angry for no reasons. of course, there should be a good reasons fot the things to happen but how ppl want to sette it down or clear up is really matters and i had better choose to explain n honest rather than keep quiet and let it be with the flow. please don't make other ppl think hard on u. just tell and share..i can do it. i will do it. i'll try to change.

HOLIDAYS--> nothing much happened but my family did manage to go off somewhere to have some good time together..hehe..love it.. then, my grandma from n.sembilan came with my aunts and uncles from kedah and selangor. it has been a long time since my house feels alive..like 20 people live in..hehe..my house alwys been quiet and most of the time the sounds only come from tv or pc and louder--may be from the kicthen when i was cooking..hahaha.. i wonder if that situation sounds like pathetic but it is not..and i do love it. :-) tranquil~~

PRACTICAL--> i did enjoy my practical session at pharmacy lim. it was fun and joyful as i did not realize that 2 weeks flew just like that. honest?? yes..of course..hehe. tq Mr jacob..i have learned a lot and make me more familiarize with the drugs and some of them i manage to get it through. even so, the report.... i've been crazy even to start with a word. laziness conquered. ayoyoyoy..and i end up with writing in my blog..hehe.. till we meet again. ^_^

p/s: nothing personal..just smthng to share with.

dwelling~~ ^_^

2009-09-14T14:20:00.003+08:00

It has been a long time since entering new sem, there’s no new post..hehe..it is expected u know .. Nothing to tell about n keep busying with new subjects that need so much attention though.

Now im in a home mode..holidays that i alwys waiting for..n this is the first time im back since last 3 months holiday. Happy~ that’s the word in my head n glad coz there’s nothing to worry about as my midsem exm was finished already. No exam after raya like the others n it makes me feel lucky enough in keeping myself to take pleasure in this mode.. ^_^

But what makes me fret rite now is i x shopping raya lagi..-_- ...still...it is a last minute as last year, evrythng was done before last week of ramadhan..huh.. pasar payang.. will be my destination on this whole week..hmm..please plucking me in attempting the traffic jam n people that smtimes really annoying.. argghhh...adding to my melancholy..i’ve to go alone..alone..alone..huh..my sis will coming back at nite before raya...-_-.. Suppose to go along with me instead of giving me money to buy everything ALONE.. :-(

Raya is approaching and Ramadhan is leaving us.. i even dun realize that time is passing by really swift and almost end of it already..sad.. i really enjoy this Ramadhan..beyond doubt.. :-)
Lets double our ibadah in this last week (last 10days)..n hoping in getting through next Ramadhan..insya Allah..

Enjoy the new song..my new fav.. hee~ ^_^

apakah?

2009-06-30T23:11:00.005+08:00

While finishing my work..out of the blue, i am thinking of my room at the campus.. hmm..even it’s only 10 days left, sometimes, i feel i cant wait to be there but sometimes, i do feel that i don’t want to go back there. More likely to be at home and live in a free mode. Nothing much to do..everyday i am free to do anything and wake up anytime that i want..hehe..

Accepting the fact that my room is not really conducive..as a matter of fact, i feel so much comfortable, cosy and really take pleasure in spending my time there.

Hmmm...3rd year is approaching and the year of seniority is increased by one.heh.. i do not know on how to be felt inside..whether to be happy?sad?anxious?worried? or fear? Of course..next sem will bring about more difficult subjects and wondering whether i can cope or not..

How good or bad it is, we must get through that year, rite? It doesn’t seem that we can skip the whole year and when we wake up..eyes open..it’s already on the graduation day...hehe..

Hoping that i am really in chuffed to bits next semester and my courage and enthusiasm will sky-scraping, succeed and live gleefully..insya Allah. Jz hope for the best!! :-)

p/s: ayoyo..repot xsiap lg..mlsnye..huk3..

my day? n his day?

2009-06-28T23:15:00.008+08:00

This entry is all about 21st june 2009...

A bundle of joy fulfilled my day and my celebration on the my birth-day..even there was no big present or a big celebration but still, i felt contented and happy. 21+ 1...getting older does not mean that we must get older with our appearance. Meaning that, age does not reflect exactly the maturity of an individual. Well...im still young..hehe...not saying that im not matured enough but it takes step by step though.. :-)

In the next day approaching, i wish that i can manage myself to be the better ‘hamba’ Allah, the best daughter, sister, person as well student. N i really hope that my way of thinking become more sought-after and desirable. I am scared of regret rather than failure.

Thanx mom for the advices and wish u gave me...n the present..love it damn much..:-) n tq jgk k.ida..hehe.

Moreover, my gratitude over my special fren for the big surprise that really9 made me stunt. Hehe. Huh, u really made me amazed of the gift. I will always take care of it until it becomes unfit. Ngeh3.

Instead of celebrating, i did know that this day was the father’s day.. hmm..sadness did approached in the morning when i could not wish n say it verbally to the person that once, stood in front of me and smiled when i said, ‘..happy father’s day..’

I alwys feel a bit of jealousy when see ayah2 yg dtg tgk ank2 kt campus because i do know, he will do the same if..yes..IF....hmm...he is still here...
I wish i can tell and write about the day of losing..but i do not know if ppl sees it as flossing..hmm..all the signs that he tried to give to all of us, the feeling of my family felt the nite before he was leaving the next morning..the symptoms and the hikmah disebalik sume ni..as well as the dreams that my family got after the day of losing. There are many things happend and of course...they wont be forgotten.

My lovely daddy, happy father’s day...i love u so much!!! :-) anak abah akn bjaya,insya Allah tp so sorry cnnot b d medical stdnt as u wished before..

Yeay~~~happy day on 21st june ...happy on the day of birth n happy in celebrating the father’s day.. hehe :-)

campor2~

2009-06-10T00:53:00.005+08:00

Sometimes when we feel so happy, the sadness will come along at the end. Thus, there is always a reminder ‘jgn hepi sgt, nnt sedih’. Once, i did not believe in that sense but when things were happened which relayed with that statement, i did believe and alwys careful for not being over excited and happy. However, when we sad all day long, at the end, the happiness will emerge n make us feel better in its own way. So..happy and sadness are the blend of human’s life.

Last Sunday, I attended one of my classmate’s wedding and it was so great and i was happy n envy with them of those moments that they created and gone through. Someday, i will be d bride (hehe..ntah ble ntah..) and i’ll always wait the moment of joy and tears in stepping into the new world and experience the sovereign life instead of being dependent on parents before on.

Congratulations MATMIN n ALONG..May both of u stay together until the end of ur life and hereafter as husband n wife and be ready for the next hard time and hepi time that both of u will spend together.

dak2 kelas rmai gak yg dtg..best tgk dorg jln2..nk join jgk..huk3 tp xkn sengsorng pompuan ttbe seketul celah2 lelaki..hohoho.. :-D.. ape pon...thnx to all yg dtg trg yg pns mmbahang..heheh..hr tu dh pesan bw sunblock kn..haha..:-P the memory will be have off pat forever...

The fever that i had on the day after jalan2 n shopping with my mom and kak ida was better. I felt more energetic and full of beans. Yeay~~ tomorrow and the day after will be more contented to fill the moments with my family jln2 kt Kota bharu plak..insya Allah..cri brg n attending the next wedding ceremony there. Looking forward to grab one of my present..hehehe.. can’t wait.. :-D. I hope the moment of getting it will come true..insya Allah.. :-)

:-(

2009-06-04T00:09:00.006+08:00

Hatred. That is what i feel right now. Im so angry till i cannot stand up myself but rather to let out by giving off droplets..huh..it does not relieve my emotion right now but i know soon, i will feel contented and lighten again. I hate the person for doing me like this. It will not be easily forgotten and forgive as well even i know he will never apologize for what he had done to mmy and me. I’ll never forgive a person who did anything that hurts mmy even the person is someone that once has my respect and love. His ego rises up like the high mountain never bow to the small ones. Nevertheless, i do believe, one day he will regret the things that he had done and never had the chance to say, ‘i’m sorry.’ i will never come along with this person n i will never do. He is definitely selfish up to highest level and over. Argggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.............................................
Well...im not easily being angry but once this happen, u a.k.a that 'person' is ssooooooo deserve it!!

and definitely the pray and istigfar are able to help in controlling rage.

it's all about kin~

bussinessssss? gain income?or even in grabbing one?~

2009-05-25T23:11:00.003+08:00

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Many pharmacists do recommend this product to the customer even elderly because of its pharmacokinetic n pharmacodynamic. The absorption is very high-à give better effect.
Plzzz let me know if ade yg berminat.. :-)

memories~~

2009-05-23T21:13:00.003+08:00

Today’s afternoon, I went to the clinic and accompanied by my beloved mom. After that, my mom wanted to take the car for service as the car has reached its limit which entail the next ‘treatment’.hehe. It took for about one and half hour to get done.

On our way home, my mom decided to stop by at the night market at the Chabang Tiga. As soon as we arrived there, my reminiscences began to capture my eyes. This place was once become part of my life during my childhood. It was where my father n I went to shop groceries and all the wet things for cooking by motorcycle.

I used to sit in the front part (the ‘bakul’ part..hehe of the motorcycle) and always enjoyed the moment. I loved to be closed with my father and when I looked up, I would see his face smiling at me because he knew that I would touch his chin. haha. This place is near to the ‘Muzium Negeri’ and at that time, my family lived at the Losong Haji Mat Shafie. It took only five to seven minutes to arrive at the market.

There and back again, I remembered the bonbon memories of the Fardhu Ain classes during evening at school (sek.keb. sri nilam – standard 3), near to Pusat Chabang Tiga. I went to the class by bicycle and yet I was not going alone.

My best fren during those moment was Hidayah (rsenye matmin knl kot..hehe.SBP dungun) and after half of the journey, we arrived at this house and like always, i yelled, ‘assalamualaikum..aizat!!! cepat...’ and within seconds, he would show up. Hehe.. if hidayah was not come along, aizat n I would go to the classes together by bicycle (beskal laen2 eh..ngee~) and like always, i would yell - call up his name until he showed up. hehe. (aizat-wan mohd aizat..rsenye ad dak kls knl kot. He was a good boy). During the morning hour, I walked to school, as my mother will drop me at one road, which leads me to the school straight away.

I was studying at sek sri nilam only for a year. There’s I met fatin farhana (dak medic), zulhimi (engine tp dah tukar ke MIAT) and then I changed school at Tok Jiring. There was I met bunif, faidhi(dak medic), fizi, jepah and others.. For standard 1 and 2, I studied at Sek Keb Kebun sireh, bukit mertajam and Sek Ren sultan sulaiman 2.
Since I was young, I did change school a lot, met, and made so many friends that I will always keep in mind and remember them.

I did treasure the moments when my friends and I shared together. Those were the moments that money cannot pay for and procured. Moral of the stories, do appreciate the friends that we made and live in contented mode~~

NaTure n ExM

2009-04-29T01:24:00.002+08:00

Listening to brett dennen..’ain’t no reason’ woke me up by the curiosity of even people in the west about all the things happened in their life naturally. Well, that’s what we called ‘fitrah’ of homosapiens in living in this universe. The highlight is we all do have the senses in taking the surrounding as the main nosiness in putting effort for doing all the jobs and things that we need to get done. Apathy in nature, solitude we will get. We are the nature. We are part of it..part and parcel..

So..the link?
It’s all about the flu which is running through in certain countries. Alhamdulillah.. Malaysia is not affected but keep praying.. it has been like the nature is giving its clue and seems to be, Allah gives the catastrophe for human’s forgetfulness…wallahualam..
Others?

Exam result:
Hmmm…first thing, alhamdulillah…
Apparently, all my frens keep talking and discussing it..of course..through the batch blog.. Some gives very funny expression about the results and some did give out by the emotions. Whatever the ways are, they are as the way in putting across the feeling inside themselves. So am i. I feel grateful..and pleased. All subjects are pass..and frankly, I did feel like kick in the teeth (disbelief) with my own result. Hopefully, it consistently increased in next sem, insya Allah..dunno what’s going to happen but let’s pray for the best and keep it up. My will should be sturdy and strong always..

COrE~~

2009-04-16T12:08:00.003+08:00

15/04/09 :11.59pm

It’s raining heavily this afternoon. I stood up at the window, glanced and gazed the surrounding. Somewhere, somehow..i felt calm.. Looking at those water droplets touched the mother nature..so beautiful.. how great the creatures create by Allah.. it’s took some time for me to be back in reality. My dream flew beyond than it can reach. So much to do..so much to think. Arghhh..life is difficult. It is complicated. If a person in my age has thought so many things, I wonder my parents did think in many things and there was a lot that they must possibly do and plan.

Today’s exam was hard. i admitted, it took a hard work in thinking and noticing what the questions were all about. But somehow, when I looked up around, I amazed that people seems to be really took pleasure in answering it as they were been looking at the rainbow shining through the clouds after raining. Huh..i did think..was I the only one that think it was hard?? yaiks..im busted. it was scared to be think about it for once more.. jz move forward!! U can do it, insya Allah.

Don’t feel free in the gap in getting through MCQ and OSPE the day after tomorrow. Better keep it up. Run as much as u can..hike as high as u can..believe in what u believe..as long it does take ur aware,strength and gut to be excellent all over again.

KehiLangn~

2009-04-11T22:44:00.005+08:00

Sudden and swift, my fingers are automatically clicked on the pictures folder à ‘family..’

It becomes sense that I miss them a lot after seeing all the pictures and aid with my stress moment in preparing for incoming papers…huh….ble la nk hbs..penat!!!

When I looked upon the latest pictures of last year hari raya…something clouts my heart. My eyes become watery. It’s not a time for the emotional feeling, of course but I cannot stand myself for imagining the condition on that day if ‘abah’ still among us. But all of us a.k.a my family members keep him in our heart. The memory won’t be fade away. The way he talked, supported, jokes around..hmmm…really miss u…it’s too sad when we missing someone that we cannot see him any longer. Sayu…I’m sooo grateful that the sense when the last time I kissed my dad’s forehead on the day of missing him still can be felt even for years.. I swore that the sense still can be felt on my lips. Thank u Allah for keeping ‘it’ for me..

i do envy with others who get the perfect love of the person called father. i lost the love tht i've been craving so much since form 5.. the year that i need so much courages and abet to live on..mmm..mls la nk bcter pnjg..xpsl2 ad senses yg swollen.so, moral of the story..haha.. love ur parents and do show ur love b4 d time is coming.

losing which is abrupt early in d morning without signs are hurt..gone without say gudbye even after seeing him before went to school.. moment to be remembered 4eva..terkilan btol..ish

my mother..she still can maintain her glee though I know, she is strong cause of her children around..

Huh..next paper on Monday after 5 days back to back exam without gaps…and still 6 days back to back exam starting this Monday..13,14,15,16,17,18..

Exams which have been through: physical pharmacy, pharmaceutical analysis, body system : cardiovascular and haematology, body system: respiratory system, and pharmacognosy.

Next exams will be:

Body system: gastrointestinal tract

Body system: urinary system

Nutraceutical and cosmeticeutical

MCQ of all above

OSPE of all body systems and pharmacognosy.

down to earth?

2009-02-23T18:30:00.003+08:00

It’s already late at night..nearer to dawn..hmmm..what was I thinking?? I cannot sleep..cannot stop thinking…it’s not a state problem of course..hehe..but whatever..i still awake..huh.. better not gonna happen again tomorrow or I’ll get insomnia..heh..hopefully not…

Sometimes..when I am alone..looking up and see things..my mind is beyond what it is look like.. I feel empty..(click 5..hehe) I feel sad..feel uncomfortable for what I have done in my life..what have I done to service my family..my parents..to grant them..to cherish and look within myself..i want them to see me..to understand me..not jz a daughter who come home in a holiday and nothing to give and share about… me, myself are not sure inside..all I can do..jz pray to Allah to give me calmness and tranquil to pace through my steps in walking along the path of my option’s taken..

I am so grateful to be born in this family.. tq Allah.. nothing more to ask.. when looking and watching the other person’s condition..around the world..my love to my family becomes deep as the blue ocean…of course there are some time which I feel hatred and fight with siblings but it is normal..nothing abnormal to feel that way around. Every1 fights.. Not meant as physical fight but more to emotion takes account. Hoho.. To those people who said that arguing between family members is not normal..i say ‘absurd!!’ nobody is perfect… the important remark is the love that grows deep inside..Collaboration and understand are the matters charged. Other things become second intent..

domicile~

2009-02-20T22:43:00.002+08:00

Safely arrived at home…homey-domey mode alwiz make me sense alive n tranquil. Breath in different environment hopefully can grant me more pluck to encounter next week and forward. Hah..unfortunately, today’s journey wasn’t good and hepi at all… I didn’t have my ‘panglima’ to talk to and heed all way along..haha.. I didn’t meant special guide as Alfonso de Albuquerque..(btol ke eja nie??) hehe..but as long as I’m feel contented and hepi.. J love it…~~~ the person who’s sat beside me has really bad odour…very powerful –hulk smell of cigarettes. Damn hate!! Huh..if I have the option, I rather opt and prefer sat on the last seat where there was less absorber approached. Headache pon headache la..as long as I can get rid of person who’s smoking..huhu.. L

Weekend mission: complete the report of pharmacognosy..but frankly I don’t think I can..haha..alwiz become the last minute person especially on report..daa~~

~moment to have off pat~

2009-02-18T11:56:00.005+08:00

Ahax!!After seven days of soreness and stress moments ~ everyday having 2 exams in different subjects for whole straight 7 days..Could u imagine on how strain we r in coping and finishing the week?

Arghhhh….slowly the time fades away with all the struggles and hopes that I’ve been stake in those papers yet the pressure still growing inside to not let go of myself for being stress. Unfortunately, my hormone seems affected with the condition that I have. Huh…being sensitive with everything surround keeps me feeling exhausted.

Hah..Though, it did turn out..Happy moments always recover to cheer me up..thanx..;-)

Besides, the IPHA bowling tournament did give me pleasure in participating even my team did not included in the ranking. But…the most important was..We did treasure our moments and at least a memoir of the event will everlasting keep in mind and to be remembered. Thanks a lot to the spectators ~amal and mar~ for coming up to enjoy the day. Hehe.. ur support n my team support (jaja, nisah, leaf) did give me spirit though..hahahha.. Same goes with z, len, bell and baizura…’bowling-ing’ together stays forever..;-P yeeehaa~

The ‘best player’ mark was not being expected at all.. Feel the unexpected adds my guts overload and hopefully can participate in next year..hehe.. but..it was unbelievable. I deemed it was just a luck for me rather that skills to gamble with.. J Moreover, there are more participants who are more qualified to win the trophy..Seriously..hmmm…~ tq to all.hehe

SENSE OF WORTH~

2009-01-14T12:58:00.002+08:00

Being too on tenterhooks to something is not good at all.. When we keep thinking and imagining that not belong to us..it’s quite absurd…hmm.. argh.. Being grateful is also damn important.. Sometimes, I do realize that I didn’t grateful within myself.. I kept thinking this and that but not thank to all that I have got… what a shame!! I should be thoughtful of all.. I should b solicitous.. Should b!! Thank u Allah for everything that I have.

Low self-esteem is also one thing which I wish to trounce.. I kept thinking negative about myself..Why should I have this?y I’m the only one that be like this? Y this and that.. I always wanna b s1 else instead of myself.. I do not hate myself totally but a part of it.. Thinking of that..i realize how awful I am..i must tolerate and endure with myself n b happy with who I am.. Not try to b sm1 else. I am who I am!!

ThE eND~

2008-12-20T17:40:00.002+08:00

End of 1st smester hols..huk3.. im in a way back to kntn this evening and will b arrived there midnight..insya Allah… hmm..meaning that this blog will be silent and tacit for a moment as I wont be able to keep posted this blog progressively..

Next sem will be hard and grueling..--> the subjects are tough and more tougher than I thought before..hmm..sigh~

Course Subject Credit Hours
PHM 2213 Physical Pharmacy II
PHM 2222 Pharmacognosy
PHM 2232 Pharmaceutical Analysis II
PHM 2243 Body System I : Cardiovascular & Haematology Systems
PHM 2252 Body System II : Respiratory 2
PHM 2262 Body System III : Gastrointestinal & Hepatobiliary Systems
PHM 2272 Body System IV : Urinary System
PHM 2292 Industrial Pharmacy & Regulation *elective
PHM 2282 Nutriceuticals & Cosmeticeuticals*elective

Hmm..whatever happen, I’ll try my best!eminent! Yeah~..uia..here I come :-P

TaG~~~

2008-12-12T11:24:00.002+08:00

Kak hanan bucuk..trime kasih tag sy..1st time wat nih..ahhaha..
Wondering leh jwb btol x.. :-D

1. Apakah benda yang paling penting dalam hidup kamu?
ha? benda..hmmm..byk..handphone..jam..kasut..byk lagi laa.

2. Apakah benda terakhir yang kamu beli dengan wang sendiri?
Topup..haha..bleh la tu..dh xingt..

3. Di manakah tempat impian perkahwinan kamu?
Errrr…ntah..xpk lg n xbncg lg..:-P

4. Berapa lama anda rasa hubungan kamu berkekalan?
insya Allah hnge ke alam kekal abadi..

5. Adakah anda dilamun cinta?
Obviously..:-P

6. Di manakah restoran terakhir kamu makan malam?
Mkn mlm?kt food village kt pengkalan chepa..

7. Namakan buku terakhir yang kamu beli?
Conan..hehe.. gle komik kot..yg len dh lupe sudey..haa

8. Apakah nama penuh kamu?
NOR MIFTAH DIANAH BINTI AHMAD..ikut ic ni..hee~

9. Kamu lebih senang dengan mak atau ayah?
errr…ayh dh berehat di alam len..dh xleh nk banding.. skrg anything happen..ma laa.. pape pom…I love my parent very9 much!

10. Namakan seseorang yang kamu ingin jumpa untuk pertama kalinya dalam hidup anda? ayyok…xtau~~.. sape? Xde kot lg.. nk jmpe ‘die’ je..ekekkekek :-P

11.Sebutkan 8 nama sahabat yang paling rapat dengan kamu?
Jah,nana,mai,nani,kmah,zana,aina,zati

12. Adakah kamu mencuci pakaian anda sendiri?
ye la…ish..letk dlm washingmachine sendiri..hahhaha

13. Tempat yang paling seronok kamu mahu pegi?
Korea..hweehehhe

14. Pelukan atau ciuman?
Kne peluk lg best kot..ntah..xtau jgk nih :-D

15. Butirkan 5 perkara tentang orang yang tag kamu.

Kak hanan – byk ckp..hehe…,sporting..ske gelak2…ske senyum..comey tomey..;-P

16. 8 perkara yang amat saya gilai.
kumpul jam, kasut, handphone, cars, bear comel2, action movies, tgk tv..bce komik..ekekeke

17. 8 perkataan yang sering di ucapkan.
uit..
Ha?..
Hmm…
Ye la…
Insya Allah..
Ok..
Ntah..
Ooooooo….

18. 8 buah buku yang paling terbaru dibaca.
Latest..conan..sblm tu sume bku subjek yg masuk exm hr tu..hehhehe

19. 8 lagu yang saya boleh dengar berulang kali.
Leave out of the rest
One step at a time
Loveholic
Rokuko..-suju
Lagu kita-aizat
Crush-dvid achuleta
Ain’t no reason –brett D
Better time

20. 8 perkara yang saya pelajari tahun lalu
2007?? Cnnt rmember la..klo thn ni..byk… think b4 u speak..sygi kwn penting..kwl diri x emo sgt ble sedih..hahahha..byk lagi…

ha...sekian saje..dh jwb dh akak..byk yg xtau..hehehhhahahha....

MIssing TripleT :-(

2008-12-10T17:02:00.005+08:00

ready....get set....yipppi~

yg ats yg bongsu..bwh ank ke2 and sulung..haha..

(announcing,we r triplet :-D)
believe or not..their noses do have holes..jz put ur finger inside n they will cherish as they feel u r 'cleaning' 4 them.haha :-P
uft..im talking like they r alive..haha..full of beans..won't they??:-D

bergolek2...yeeehaaa~..

Owh...missing triplet..:-( they were moving to Penang..huk3… as they are my 2nd elder brother’s lovers..hehe..-> bang zad punyer.. :-D.. since he was in holidays for a few days after finishing his housemanship and before futher his study-> postgraduate stdnt starting dis week. the triplet did spend time with me.. watching tv n movies mutually.. my dearest HyPo-s.. we love u..hahaa… what a post~ :-P

Lackluster = Boring

2008-12-03T23:46:00.003+08:00

Iyyyaaaahhhh….hmm..i’m so tedious right now..nothing to do and t b done..jz hanging in frnt of tv and pc..huh..i wish..hmm..i..wish..what I want to wish actually??haha..i wish..I’m in a pool of books…so that I can read all of them.. typically, I’ll be keen on love story books and magazines rather than others for the time being. For educational facet, I rather do that at the campus..ekekekeke.. I love to be acquainted with new technologies and cars..love to watch ‘top gear’..hehe..F1.. and I’m craving to know the latest products and designs of handphones..they jz drive me crazy..soo passionate..hahaa..

XPERIA..the latest hp of sony Ericsson..I rather called same as pocket pc. It does catch my sight of..xperia and pocket pc would be like peas in a pod.. touchscreen..slides..8MP if I’m not mistaken..3G, easy access n many more..all in one. what can I tell?Lucky to have it..:-) mother, i want itttttt ;-P :-P

REsulT~

2008-12-02T19:14:00.001+08:00

Oho..result is available to be checked already.. hmm..alhamdulillah.. some of the grade does make me stunned but basically, I’m ok with it.. hope to be more painstaking and particular next same..haha…the same thing I told myself every sem since I got into UIA..hehe.. gud luck to others who have not check yet… all the anxious and timid have been over.. it’s time to look out or take heed the new skills in studying to get better result indeed. ;-) Outshine is coming~~

Out of the ordinary~

2008-11-30T23:05:00.002+08:00

Hah..currently, I’m addicted to ‘loveholic’..basically dunno the existence of this series but fortunately, at 1 time..i changed the channel to KBS world and the series was ‘running’..hehe.. It is just like a ‘fortune cookie’ for me hehe as I was damn boring at that time.. like timon said, ‘no more fortune cookies for u’..:-D love those words..hehe. at last, I have found smthng 4 my leisure time. Loveholic (2005) is a love story..forbidden love story at first..hehe as it is related to the ethics for being a teacher n student..hmm..quite interesting n impinge on variety of emotions.

What im trying to stress on is the disease that the teacher has which is called narcolepsy..i never know of this disease at all..suprisingly the patient will fall asleep when he or she is depressed and in stress…witty eh? :-D

Narcolepsy is a neurological condition most characterized by Excessive Daytime Sleepiness (EDS), in which a person falls asleep during the day at inappropriate times, such as at work or school. A narcoleptic will most probably experience disturbed nocturnal sleep, which is often confused with insomnia, and disorder of REM or rapid eye movement sleep. It is one of the dyssomnias. A narcoleptic may also fall asleep at random.
The main characteristic of narcolepsy is excessive daytime sleepiness (EDS), even after adequate night time sleep. A person with narcolepsy is likely to become drowsy or fall asleep, often at inappropriate times and places. Daytime naps may occur without warning and may be physically irresistible. These naps can occur several times a day. They are typically refreshing, but only for a few hours. Drowsiness may persist for prolonged periods of time. In addition, night time sleep may be fragmented with frequent awakenings. Four other "classic" symptoms of narcolepsy, which may not occur in all patients, are cataplexy, sleep paralysis, hypnagogic hallucinations, and automatic behavior.

Hmm…it is exquisite and fascinating story to be watched during holiday.. I’m not saying it is the best but at least can perish the spare time.
Yeah~~~

dim~

2008-11-27T17:10:00.002+08:00

Today is a gloomy day..it’s raining all day.. Everything seems not right to me..dunno why but inside, I feel sad, indecisive feeling and sense something is not done… I try to exude everything that cause me disappointed but I can’t. I afraid to feel the pain, afraid to cause pain to others and afraid if I losing something.. sigh~Arghhhh..hate to feel this way..hope the calmness and serenity come along soon.

makn2 at food village..~

2008-11-26T14:24:00.009+08:00

hehe..after a day visiting KB and attending the wedding celebration of my sister's fren at Pasir Puteh..we went for dinner at food village.. the place was good and the food was delicious. i could not stand my self not to over ate..haha..yummy...

bang di, nabilah bucuk..hehe... n kak emi

ama..dapnyer mkn..hehe

kerol and bang zad

me n k.ida

incoming wedding~

2008-11-18T22:09:00.002+08:00

Stating on 20th November..my classmates and I will be on trip to kelantan in attending the big event.. ‘ct nadiah n izani’ wedding..hehe. Both of them are our wonderful and cherish classmates who are waiting for the treasured memories in about +- 48 hours..hehe.
Thanks to the person who is charged for our transportation, home stays and subsidizes food. All of us will be there on 20th until 23rd nov. Believe or not..i can imagine the vast occurrence coming and all the pleasurable and contented faces will be publicized through the days during the trip.

On 7th December, our next classmate, kak atiqah n her husband to be.. ‘ipin’ will be get married on that day. Congratulation for both and hope all the preparations and arrangement will be getting done and complete on time. Hope the relationship, commitment and responsibility that they bear will lead them to be strong and brawny till the end and hereafter..insya Allah. We will always pray for ur happiness.

p/s: our ex-class rep will be next..hehe..u know who..

and hoping to see wani and her baby in next sem..haha.

credit to nana abdullah..:-)

2008-11-15T12:46:00.003+08:00

nana..sy cilok gmbr nih..hehehe...jgn mrh ek..:-D

n tq sume sudi dtg beraye umah sy..thn dpn plak yer;-)

nothing much~

2008-11-14T22:32:00.001+08:00

Second days at home..hmm..nothing much that I’ve done..jz sit around, helping with the cooking, watching…blogging..n hmm definitely..sleeping..hehee..

Personal view on the issues tht have been whispered around..marriage issue; very big responsibility comes along..need to be totally prepared in all aspects.. it’s jz not the way in declaring the relationship in the best approach but more to uphold the honour and conscientiousness together as one. Easy for us to judge but hard for them to make the decision and craft the dreams to be collectively reliable. Hmmm….

Frenship affair..a lot of hearsay that I heard and some bad judgement was been made to reflect the hurt feelings that each other posses. I am not good in comforting people but at least I can be a good listener, though. Thinking to all problems which have been ensued, sometimes I feel I’m too afraid in committing the not up to scratch feelings to my frens as they will misunderstand or misinterpret my words and actions.

Men.. They are less sensitive than women. They tend to look up things in rational way and by naked eyes compare to women, they tend to see problems with naked eyes plus feel with emotions. See the difference? That‘s why men posse their role as a leader whether in a family and also in the society. Not meant that women cannot be a leader.. Women also be born as a leader. Women full with emotions but tears are not always related to women.. Men also cry but in different outcome. Sometimes, tears flow down through the cheeks when the person is too angry and when the person cannot let it out properly...besides, the tears allied with the sadness that is not seize by the person’s shoulder + heart itches. Men like to seek and give solutions rather than jz to listen to what the partner tells the problems. Sometimes, women only need them to listen and they will satisfy, not search for the solution from them unless when women inquire them to do so..

Unembellished Final....hmm~

2008-11-12T22:53:00.001+08:00

2weeks of hard time n back to back exm did give so much pressure. Sometimes I amazed that I can get through all of them…within that time, I also can feel the emptiness inside.. sadness comes along through the days of loneliness…hmm…the hurt feelings still can be felt..the ‘necrosis’ inside hope still can be reversible.. All the things that happened did give me lessons and barrier to move forward…. It’s hurt to keep all of them by myself.

OOOLIIIIDAY!!! 5weeks in relieving mode…can’t wait to plan the pleasant vacation of the family..heheh..looking 4ward to capture the ‘bling2’ moments in the clouds without raining flows to the deep sea…

1st day raya..in d morning~

2008-11-12T22:28:00.001+08:00

d arrival~

2008-09-27T23:25:00.002+08:00

at last..im home..feel free and enjoy my holiday..but underneath, i do know, there are many things to be submitted on the day after the holiday is off...huh~ nothing to say but what i wish for this raya is my family will be happier and celebrated the day in delighting and tickling moment than before. even the joy never be the same..hopefully, the spirit will enlighten us in making merry the hari raya for my family, insya Allah. to our beloved one who had left us..almost 4 years, the memories will never be fade away..kesayuan tetap dirasai...wassalam...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA & MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

second half of sem 1..

2008-09-19T09:16:00.002+08:00

gone baby gone..hehe..gone midsem gone..Jz waiting for the result which I think im totally, definitely, all in all out…ngeh3..hmm..do wanna think about it..apart frm it…Ramadhan…feel like the days that I’ve got through too fast and now its already 19 days of fasting..there’s so much things that I think I wanna do in this month but only half of them fulfilled..is there any probability for me to feel the Ramadhan month approaching? ~sigh~. Many hearsay have grasped to my ears..and sore feeling arises…however, cant wait for ‘blk raya’ cz what I think the journey is the most fun that celebrating it..dunno y but I’ve felt that way for many years before. Hope incoming raya will be better than last year..happier and cut off the sadness in myself..hmm… hopefully….insya Allah...

incoming MIDSEM..hoho

2008-08-19T10:13:00.001+08:00

the em will b started next week on MOnday and Guess what??im not ready..there r so much things to do..this is the student’s life..i do admit it..but no matter what the reasons I said before, the one thing that is simple but central..get ready from the start..hoho..who said that to me he??forgot already..hehe. oho, it’s already 10.30. got a class to go..janne!!

:-(

2008-08-17T16:47:00.001+08:00

When I'm lost in the rain,
In your eyes
I know I'll find the light
To light my way.
And when I'm scared,
And losing ground,
When my world is going crazy,
You can turn it all around.
And when I'm down you're there- pushing me to the top.
You're always there,
giving me all you've got.
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend,
for a love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
When I lose the will to win,
I just reach for you and
I can reach the sky again.
I can do anything'
Cause your love is so amazing,
'Cause your love inspires me.
And when I need a friend,
You're always on my side
Giving me faithtaking me through the night
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend,
for a love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
For the arms to be my shelterthrough all the rain,
For truth that will never change,
For someone to lean on,
For a heart I can rely on through anything,
For that one who I can run to...
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend,
for a love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you

awesome~~~tremendous

2008-08-16T23:31:00.002+08:00

Guess what??hehe…the concert was awesome..love it so much even the first part in catching the chairs was quite stiff to get. Huh~…at first we (mar and me) thought that the show was delayed..mybe next nite but fortunately the venue was changed from medical square to the audi…thnx to the person who asked us about the location of the event basically .hehe.. that was when we rushed to the audi to ensure the event really there..it was there..hehe. Relieve and contented but the audi was definitely cold. We can’t stand to walk in even to sit down for 5 minutes but for satisfying ourselves for coming to the event even the raining was ~~heavy…and not to forget..the cupcake was scrumptious..yummy.. :-) Thanx raihan.hehe. I’m loving it..yeah~

About the concert, the show was held in front of the Kuliyyah of medicine. It was started a bit late but worth it..first show by Raihan..the harmony was excellent. They were so good. J Then, the dikir from gombak..the ‘tukang karut’ was very hilarious..funny .hehe..and lastly from akhil hayy… he was good in be in contact with audience. The way that he talked seem so heart catching.. and he was good looking, of course..haha. Emm..the show was ended at 1.30am. overall, it was worth it ;-)

it's raining....

2008-08-15T21:01:00.004+08:00

hoho....it is raining rite now and the opening ceremony is cancelled. huhu...what a day...Since evening, the sky didn’t seem so pleasant…It was dark and the wind was blown so insistently. So it wasn’t weird the raining fall tonite. But Im frustrated as I can’t watch the concert..:-( early tomorrow morning I’ll b gone.. not forever but to be at home. Huh..When will the day of event come again? Seem I’ve to wait till next year… bling2…ha..nxt 2 weeks is my mid sem exam..im so anxious as the schedule seems so pack. Need to be prepared early this time. Go go nana!!! When will the rain stop.. (wondering) so I can go back to mahallah. The experience in ‘redah ujan lebat gler9!..gler xlebat g2’ was quite treasuring even my cloth is totally 100% wet.huh! but I do have fun..mar, when will we do it again??haha…let’s try another adventure eh?ekekekeke

i-Quest n more than that.

2008-08-15T15:40:00.004+08:00

hmmm..wondering the words stand for what since last year event...hoho..and fortunately the secret was revealed at last. one of my best fren told me that 'i' stands for iium and quest for kuantan festival...hehe..today is the starting moment for those are participating -committees of course...and iium kuantan cintizens..ngeh3..but unfortunately i will b back home tomorrow morning.. huh...im not feel so sad but at least I can participate in the opening ceremony tonite..hehe… hope the concert will be blossom and catching the eyes even the VIP not really catching the eyes..haha…sori ~ :-P emmm..in this week, im not really feel ok and happy..i seems to be more sensitive, more fantasy outcomes..it was really a hard-hitting week. I always think that this week should be more take pleasure in than last week but what can I say…the things that I wanted did not turn on like they it should be. huh~ what a bad luck…yaiks...i should be gone right now..some1 is missing me..haha.. (org sblh duk jeling2 page ni--ape da...i dunno u..ish) c u soon.

2008-08-14T16:25:00.002+08:00

gloomy..:-(

2008-08-08T08:42:00.001+08:00

Last few days, there were so many things that I assumed will be breathtaking and tranquil after the occurrence happened, but what can I say…it was totally unsatisfying and gloomy. I was not in a mood and thought outrageously about myself. It seems that I blamed myself for what had happened and it was not my intention in doing things like that. Arghhh…………..I was definitely tried my best and did it for all sake but what I’ve got. I felt that I was not appreciated and the all people fingers pointing at me. What a bad day…. :-( because of this things, I became more sensitive and sorry for those who felt like I was releasing my stress and sadness to them especially him..Sorry dear..That was not my intention at all. L I won’t do it anymore…
Hmmm..There are so many notes to read and the midsem is just around the corner. What I have done in facing the theory test..i am totally not geared up at all yet all my frens definitely have read a lot of them….
What new on news? hehe…I’ve got a birthday gift from my best frens ever..ngeh3..thanx u..

...

2008-08-05T12:58:00.003+08:00

new sem brings me a lot of new things. i become happier and wiser(ye ke..hehe)..but at least i did realize the new me..all the new subjects that i was afraid in facing them before are actually not so damn difficult but do give me stress in facing and hearing the new terms. in class, i wonder if i really gave the focus and concentration that i promised myself before..hehe..but actually,definitely not!!keh3..hmm...i amazed with my classmates who can give totally cooperation and mind focus in class when i was already in new dimension(dream) and fantasy even when the class started only for about 10 minutes.hehe..what a bad habit. sigh~ arghh...one report was done and 4 reports to come. whoever like and enjoy doing them, what can i say....GREAT.. when will i become like that? ponder, hmm? hehe...c u..

sadness...

2008-07-01T11:28:00.002+08:00

yesterday filled with contentment but yet at the end, i was not happy anymore..keep thinking why the 'thing' was happening..but what can i do, it was already happened. it was a sign that in future, i must be extra careful. don't take a simple thing for granted. always pray wherever we are.. arghhh..i hate when i feel like this. not happpy and not in my mood.