apakah?

While finishing my work..out of the blue, i am thinking of my room at the campus.. hmm..even it’s only 10 days left, sometimes, i feel i cant wait to be there but sometimes, i do feel that i don’t want to go back there. More likely to be at home and live in a free mode. Nothing much to do..everyday i am free to do anything and wake up anytime that i want..hehe..

Accepting the fact that my room is not really conducive..as a matter of fact, i feel so much comfortable, cosy and really take pleasure in spending my time there.

Hmmm...3rd year is approaching and the year of seniority is increased by one.heh.. i do not know on how to be felt inside..whether to be happy?sad?anxious?worried? or fear? Of course..next sem will bring about more difficult subjects and wondering whether i can cope or not..

How good or bad it is, we must get through that year, rite? It doesn’t seem that we can skip the whole year and when we wake up..eyes open..it’s already on the graduation day...hehe..

Hoping that i am really in chuffed to bits next semester and my courage and enthusiasm will sky-scraping, succeed and live gleefully..insya Allah. Jz hope for the best!! :-)

p/s: ayoyo..repot xsiap lg..mlsnye..huk3..

my day? n his day?

This entry is all about 21st june 2009...

A bundle of joy fulfilled my day and my celebration on the my birth-day..even there was no big present or a big celebration but still, i felt contented and happy. 21+ 1...getting older does not mean that we must get older with our appearance. Meaning that, age does not reflect exactly the maturity of an individual. Well...im still young..hehe...not saying that im not matured enough but it takes step by step though.. :-)

In the next day approaching, i wish that i can manage myself to be the better ‘hamba’ Allah, the best daughter, sister, person as well student. N i really hope that my way of thinking become more sought-after and desirable. I am scared of regret rather than failure.

Thanx mom for the advices and wish u gave me...n the present..love it damn much..:-) n tq jgk k.ida..hehe.

Moreover, my gratitude over my special fren for the big surprise that really9 made me stunt. Hehe. Huh, u really made me amazed of the gift. I will always take care of it until it becomes unfit. Ngeh3.

Instead of celebrating, i did know that this day was the father’s day.. hmm..sadness did approached in the morning when i could not wish n say it verbally to the person that once, stood in front of me and smiled when i said, ‘..happy father’s day..’

I alwys feel a bit of jealousy when see ayah2 yg dtg tgk ank2 kt campus because i do know, he will do the same if..yes..IF....hmm...he is still here...
I wish i can tell and write about the day of losing..but i do not know if ppl sees it as flossing..hmm..all the signs that he tried to give to all of us, the feeling of my family felt the nite before he was leaving the next morning..the symptoms and the hikmah disebalik sume ni..as well as the dreams that my family got after the day of losing. There are many things happend and of course...they wont be forgotten.

My lovely daddy, happy father’s day...i love u so much!!! :-) anak abah akn bjaya,insya Allah tp so sorry cnnot b d medical stdnt as u wished before..

Yeay~~~happy day on 21st june ...happy on the day of birth n happy in celebrating the father’s day.. hehe :-)

campor2~

Sometimes when we feel so happy, the sadness will come along at the end. Thus, there is always a reminder ‘jgn hepi sgt, nnt sedih’. Once, i did not believe in that sense but when things were happened which relayed with that statement, i did believe and alwys careful for not being over excited and happy. However, when we sad all day long, at the end, the happiness will emerge n make us feel better in its own way. So..happy and sadness are the blend of human’s life.

Last Sunday, I attended one of my classmate’s wedding and it was so great and i was happy n envy with them of those moments that they created and gone through. Someday, i will be d bride (hehe..ntah ble ntah..) and i’ll always wait the moment of joy and tears in stepping into the new world and experience the sovereign life instead of being dependent on parents before on.

Congratulations MATMIN n ALONG..May both of u stay together until the end of ur life and hereafter as husband n wife and be ready for the next hard time and hepi time that both of u will spend together.

dak2 kelas rmai gak yg dtg..best tgk dorg jln2..nk join jgk..huk3 tp xkn sengsorng pompuan ttbe seketul celah2 lelaki..hohoho.. :-D.. ape pon...thnx to all yg dtg trg yg pns mmbahang..heheh..hr tu dh pesan bw sunblock kn..haha..:-P the memory will be have off pat forever...

The fever that i had on the day after jalan2 n shopping with my mom and kak ida was better. I felt more energetic and full of beans. Yeay~~ tomorrow and the day after will be more contented to fill the moments with my family jln2 kt Kota bharu plak..insya Allah..cri brg n attending the next wedding ceremony there. Looking forward to grab one of my present..hehehe.. can’t wait.. :-D. I hope the moment of getting it will come true..insya Allah.. :-)

:-(

Hatred. That is what i feel right now. Im so angry till i cannot stand up myself but rather to let out by giving off droplets..huh..it does not relieve my emotion right now but i know soon, i will feel contented and lighten again. I hate the person for doing me like this. It will not be easily forgotten and forgive as well even i know he will never apologize for what he had done to mmy and me. I’ll never forgive a person who did anything that hurts mmy even the person is someone that once has my respect and love. His ego rises up like the high mountain never bow to the small ones. Nevertheless, i do believe, one day he will regret the things that he had done and never had the chance to say, ‘i’m sorry.’ i will never come along with this person n i will never do. He is definitely selfish up to highest level and over. Argggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.............................................
Well...im not easily being angry but once this happen, u a.k.a that 'person' is ssooooooo deserve it!!

and definitely the pray and istigfar are able to help in controlling rage.

it's all about kin~